Time

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I cannot believe we are at the start of yet another decade. What makes the years go so fast ? I retire in the year 2022 and that is scarily not that far away. My mind wanders to that year and tries to imagine what i will look like, how physically fit will i be and what will my financial status be?

I want a good retirement, whatever i am able to afford i want it to be fun. Its all just twelve years away ...... oh my goodness, twelve years. I am more than halfway thru my life........my mortality is getting closer. I think of the generations of family above me that have all passed on including my parents and life feels so short, i also think of time past and how much of it i have wasted or frittered away and how i thought there was plenty of time, but there is never plenty of time, i realise this now i am older.

What do you believe in ? i believe there is another life after this one, and hopefully several more after that one. I just cannot believe we go thru this life experiencing so much for there not to be something at the end of it - it would be so pointless. De ja Vue ? flashbacks of a previous life, your brain trying to tell you something about your previous life or maybe even a future life. I don't know, it hurts to much to think about it (laughs).

Life is exciting, every day is exciting, not knowing what the day has in store for you is exciting, i feel happy and full of hope every day - ok, so some days this feeling hides itself, but its never far from the surface. It feels good to be alive and i feel lucky to have a roof over my head, a job and some money in my purse, to have good friends who care. Friendships are so important, and you have to nurture, encourage and show love to make them grow. I wish i lived nearer to all my brothers, i miss them and think of them and when we were kids, how close we were, how we liked to play and how our parents encouraged us to love each other. That feels like a lifetime ago - and now my brothers have children of their own, and those children are just reaching the age of 30 who have children of their own - life repeating itself.

So here i am, my 53rd Birthday just months away from me. Some people have complied a tick list of what they wish to achieve by the time they are 50. I have no such list, i guess i could write one, 'Things i wish to have done by the time i am 60' ........ Hmmmm.... i've always wanted to see the sunrise at Stonehenge, i'd like to go to 'Glastonbury Fest', even to see the Great Wall of China would be fab and i guess if i put my mind to it i could come up with lots of weird and wonderful things, but the truth is i do not have a passion or a fire inside me that drives me to achieve these things. I am contented. I have never really been driven to strive for anything or felt such passion to achieve. I do have a passion for friends and family and life, this passion was shown to me by my parents, i've never stepped outside the box to expect more, i have always known what was obtainable and to be happy with this. Does that sound too simple ? Life is not complicated and i like the saying 'life is what you make it' it is exactly that. We are in control, i am in control, this is my life it will be whatever i choose it to be within the realms of realism.

2010 has two new beginnings for me. I have fallen deeply in love with Stuart. We met about 8 years ago, we became friends, i never imagined then that i would love him this much. My other new beginning is another move, but only up the road, another new home which i will be sharing with my friend Sandra. She says we will be like the 'golden girls' (giggling) this has just got to be experienced to be believed (giggles). I am looking forward to the year ahead, it will be whatever i choose it to be.

Speaky soon :o)

Goodbye 2009

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2009 was a year of moving on - it is now three years since my Mum passed away. Its been difficult adjusting to life without her. My life will never be the same and i have learnt to accept that now and realise that life is still good but in a different kind of way. I moved into my lovely little flat by the sea at the end of March and have been so happy there (tho i am thinking of moving - more news on that soon). I have felt more energised this year, holding my head high with a spring in my step, or as much as i can spring with these dodgy knees of mine. I've keyhole surgery that only marginally improved my mobility which is very severe. I had a wonderful 2 week holiday with my step mother who came to stay in June. And then Stuart came back into my life in August and i feel so happy and it is with this new found happiness that i look forward to 2010.

To all my fellow bloggers, thank you for your friendship and comments. One of my new years resolutions is to have a 'correspondence' evening each week and to re establish my blogging too. I enjoy it so much, both writing and reading others. Happy New Year to you all, i hope this is the start of a wonderful decade.

Big Love
Jaynee X

Socks so far ..

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This is a picture of my sock - fab eh ?! It will soon be transformed into a Sock Monster......lol....but right now i am heading off to the flicks to watch the latest Harry Potter movie with my friend Sarah. We are going to the childrens showing, £2.99 which includes popcorn and a drink...ye'ha!

Speaky soon ;o)

Sock Creatures

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How annoying, i wrote an entry last night while i was high on drugs (that'll be paracetamol) playing really, really loud music and dancing around the kitchen to 'Sensuality, Love, Devotion' and i lost the entire entry........ Hmmm, maybe jus as well..... he hee :o)

I have discovered 'Sock Creatures', and all i am going to say is 'Watch this Space' ;o)

Speaky soon xx

Love & Pain

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I would like to say i am jus fab but the truth is i am feeling very sad. A very dear friend, who some of you will know has jus been given bad news. His cancer is incurable and has been told he only has a few months to live.

Cancer is a very cruel disease. My ex husband fought it for a year, some years later i was to fight it myself, my mother fought it and sadly died after 5 years - i can't believe she will have been gone 3 years this December, her sister also fought it. Did you know that one in every four people will be diagnosed with Cancer at some point in their life. Its a very scary thought isn't it?

Life is so precious, consider what you have and hold it very close - love does last forever, but one day when you wake that love will bring with it pain.

Speaky soon X

Beach talk...

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I had quite a hectic week last week, Monday evening was spent at home, Tuesday i worked late, Wednesday Lynne came round - we sipped read wine and chatted, oh and she read my Tarot cards......Hmmmm....Thursday i threw a little birthday party for a friend - drank far to much and got to bed by 3am ! Friday was out celebrating Sandra's birthday, yesterday was spent recovering from the week .......Hmmm shouldn't that be the weekend....*giggles*.

So this morning i was up with the lark and down on the beach at 7.30am. Life here at The Cove is jus wonderful, i think i am a Mermaid at heart, if i could jus find Mr Mermaid that really would make my life complete....*sigh*.. So, when i got to my car this morning this beautiful Moth was resting on the bonnet..

Is'nt he/she lovely, i'm sure i had a dress in that colour and design once - it looks so familiar ;o)

It was so good to be on the beach early, mind you there were one or two people about, the chaps with their metal detectors (they always seem to be there when the tide has jus gone out) and of course the surfers..

I was on the far side of the beach to take that and had to zoom right in on them, this is the view looking the other way..

As the beach here is a Cove its only when the tide is right out that you can walk out of the cove and see these huge cliff faces, and as you can see in this photo the beach stretches for about 3 miles to the next cove. I have promised myself that once i get my new knees this is a walk that i intend to do. So with the tide out this morning i took the opportunity to explore between some of the larger rocks, it was brilliant - lots of rock pools with little fishes swimming around in them the hour i spent there on the beach jus whizzed by..... here are a few photo's.

It's jus fascinating looking at the rocks, wish i knew a little more about geology, look at the picture on the left above......see that line running horizontally thru the big rock, that line is a completely different type of rock ......i find it amazing. And all the mussells living on the rock and the shells in the picture on the right have barnacles growing on them, it looks like sand does'nt it - well its not .....lol.... and at high tide all these rocks are completely submerged. It was amazing walking between all these rocks, it was like being in another world. It makes you feel great to be alive :o)

This next picture i thought was a great view - looking back into the Cove.

I started to walk back up the beach and as i went i picked up lots of little pebbles that i wanted for the patio, i picked up quite a few the bag got heavier and heavier, some were not so little.....

And this is what i did with some of them......

Speaky soon :o)

I promise to do better .....but then i don't make promises ;o)

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I was jus saying the other day to a fellow blogger that i don't seem to make so many entries as i used to. JLand was so much better, or was it.....change.....its supposed to be good for us. I'm going to try and make more entries - i miss our little community.

So, whats new? well its raining....ugh! June started off so well, Anne my step mum came and stayed with me for two weeks and ok so we had some rain but nothing like this, all i can do is look thru the window onto my little patio, the bedraggled plants struggling to look beautiful as the wind blows them around and the rain drenches them. Please Mr Sunshine come back.....and stay for a while :o) can we all practise happy sunny smiles - it just might bring him back!

I noticed last weekend my toes have wrinkles on them - and no i had not jus got out of the bath.....hehee.....I've noticed since i hit 50 everything is changing .....scary huh? but wrinkles on your toes, whats that all about ? so does this mean i now have to rub my anti wrinkle cream into my toes as well as my face ......hehee.......

I'm off out for sunday lunch with my brother and sister in law later, its a smashing little pub, it has lots of mining memorabilia on the walls - i don't know what it is about Cornish mining but i as so intrigued about it and now that i am living in a 'mining valley' i must do some research to find out more about it - perhaps that will be a project for the winter months.

Speaky soon :o)